sometimes I don’t eat like a skinny person

The new breakfast / lunch thing is going well.

But, I nonetheless ate my weight in feelings yesterday. Found out my mom isn’t doing well and then took to mindlessly eating ALL NIGHT. It’s crazy, watching myself do that. So, I woke up two pounds heavier than yesterday. Sure, I will poo some of that out and am probably retaining water from the salt — still feels shitty though. That my first response is to eat. And yes I really did say I will poo some of that out. Because that is how I roll.

Going to be more cognizant of my food choices today. Need to be. I have been doing so well. This is the lightest I have been in a very long time.